The WAIT………..

I have often heard everyone around me in work or at home say these things up late, “Piyu, you are very impatient, very restless, you should have some patience with whatever you are up to and in case you have asked someone something, please wait for his/her reply, give people some breathing time dear.”
Cultivate the “dough making attitude” instead of “instant coffee attitude” or “noodles making attitude” which you have, as it will help you in the long run.

All your allegations are true guys, and I am wholeheartedly sorry for my behavior. But, just for once put yourself in my shoes and see the world that I am looking at, I am sure all the perceptions that you guys carry about me being restless and impatient will change forever.”

Piyu went on…..

How often do you all feel like something void is there in your regular day? Has it occurred to anyone ever, that the sunlight seems to be dimmer and dimmer, as days pass by, and do any of you have an unknown giddiness in your stomach all the time? For me, present days are just like that, they are a constant headache just like an unknown program stuck in an infinite loop in my head just running and running, exhausting me and squeezing all the energy out. This is how I have been ever since I last saw him (Ross).

And talking of patience, I am patiently counting the number of coffee that I had without him, the number of Fridays we didn’t meet in our usual shuttle stop, catch the same metro and while going back have tea near Central Park or go for window-shopping or sometimes a small tour to Times Square. I am patiently waiting to have another fight with him over the new formal shirts collection launched.

I do have patience, a lot of patience but if only, this WAIT, which began just for days, then changed into months, and now even season past by and still going on, would just end. Due to the outbreak of this insane pandemic, life has broken into pieces and maybe everyone is right, we do need a new normal. That said, even in the new, I would need Ross by my side maybe even more now than ever.

I don’t even know what will I do when I meet him the first time after things start falling in place, whether I will cry my heart out or blush or just smile handing him a bouquet or just run and hug him for as long as I want to, its all mixed feelings.

So, to all with whom I have been impatient or acted restless even screamed during this course of time, a wholehearted and sincere apologize for my immature behavior. And, yeah maybe you guys are right, I should cultivate the habit of “dough making attitude” rather than my “instant coffee attitude” as you never know how long this wait will go on and on and on………………………………

For Ross……..

Read the article, written by Piyu on her notepad left open, along with a cup of cold pale coffee left untouched by its side, lying on her study desk as Piyu was sobbing and fell asleep last night.