Miles away

Taking this decision was not easy, trust me, dear; this was the most difficult one for as long as I could remember, but the situation was such that there was no other way out in front of me. I thought, or should I say I wished wholeheartedly, that moving away from the city, quitting my job, coming back to parents, and stop contacting you, would in some way no matter how small but, someway bring relief to my pain, maybe just maybe in some way act as a medicine to my wounds.

Sitting with mom and chatting for hours, gardening, playing with pigeons, painting, listening to songs while having late-night conversations with all, may help me in escaping from this constant suffering and misery, all leading to depression and anxiety.

But,

Guess what, it didn’t……………

It did not change anything at all, literally nothing.

All I ended up doing after my return, is to sit in my garden, planting trees, feeding pigeons, and keep thinking about you, just you, Ross. 

Maybe someday by some miracle or in some way, I wish you get to read this page in my diary as I am not sure if I will ever return back. So that you will understand what I am going through and why I did what I did. Because I would never ever talk about it, as I know you, If I did say you anything, you will blame yourself for all these……….. but, in reality, that’s not true at all. 

These are all situational and no one is to be blamed, in fact, you were not even aware of the crisis, as I thought to keep you uninformed about the situation, will in some way help; as you would not know what is wrong and what I am going through because I can never ever even in my worst dreams hurt you, dear.

So, don’t worry we will get through the tough times, everything will fall in place, with life, with work, and will become even more beautiful like never before. A life we dreamt of full of happiness and joy, we will be together to face all the difficulties just like we always do. I will forever bug you with my doubts in making a client presentation and keep pinging you till you come out from your cabin for having tea with me.

Those where the most precious moments that I will always cherish and will be close to my heart for as long as I live.

Anyways, I will keep writing and calling you whenever you are free, and please take care of yourself. Don’t take too much of work pressure, everything will be fine I am sure of it.

And, the most important thing I will always keep smiling as you love seeing me smile. I know that and like I always say; 

 Nothing will change, everything will be the same forever;

 In fact, it will increase more and more every single minute, every single day of my life.

Take care Ross and be happy………………………

All for you………………..

Read the last page of her diary, which was lying open on her study desk in a room filled with dead silence and the smell of Piyu’s perfume all around in the stagnant air with no sunlight, no winds, and no hope. As she had left for her home almost a week back, leaving behind all her stuff, especially those given by Ross in its primary place. But, just this dairy which was closest to her heart was left unattended.

Its rightly said, sometimes even a closed room with no noise speaks a million words more than a conference filled with people.

From the Author: Continuation to the storyline:
The Wait…………

That Birthday